It's been a month since my last post, sorry about that, didn't really know what to talk about, and sorry for this post being me just venting, hopefully that won't happen as much in the future.
I started this blog as a way to motivate me into writing down what i think about and to get me to work on creative projects more, it hasn't been a huge success since i am back to wasting my time on video games and youtube, it's hard to motivate myself to actually work on anything, hell i have barely worked on what my last post was about! Like it's so fucking hard to motivate myself to actually work on anything, i really want to work on stuff but i feel like even if i put my all into these projects, they will suck? So i end not doing so and that just makes me feel like i am wasting my life doing nothing! I barely go outside, i don't have a job, i sleep during the day, it all fucking sucks! But trying to change those things is so fucking hard man, anytime i think about getting a job or actually working on creative things i get extremely anxious to the point where i prefer doing something to distract myself over actually working to solve those issues.
I am working on some creative projects but i don't really have much progress on them and i doubt that will change much in the near future, maybe after i find a way to deal with my anxiety they will see the light of day.